Yesterday afternoon I had plenty of things I could have been doing for my business. What I chose to do was veg on the TV. What is interesting here is that one part of me was insisting that I chill out and enjoy my shows (I dvr everything). However, because the healthier part of me would have felt much better had I done a few things, Zi never really got to the “chill” mode. I just sat there feeling guilty. Procrastination happens with me when I am having uncomfortable feelings, and the little escape artist in e is screaming loudly “ESCAPE BY ANY MEANS POSSIBLE”. Yesterday, it was the TV. It didn’t work. Crap!! My feelings are demanding my attention. I am not even sure what they are. Fear if some sort. Hard to just be with them.