I notice when I am afraid or unsure about some area in my life, I can be quick to fall back into “comfort” behaviors. What is so bizarre to me is that these behaviors actually hurt me. So why does some part of my brain tell me they will make me feel better? Because…they USED to make me feel better. Need to create new grooves in my brain. Self-indulgence is not self-care nor self-compassion. Darn!!
I notice a snowball effect when I feel bored. I become slothful, ungrateful, whiney, irritable, and nothing can make me happy. I pick on my husband. Point out what he is doing wrong. Don’t want to show up for life. Find fault with just about everything. I want to overeat and spend money that I don’t have. I watch way too much TV…and nothing is grabbing my attention.
What is my solution? First I have to become aware that I am bored. Creativity wakes me up. Alleviates boredom. Just organizing something…a drawer, a box of papers, my schedule…whatever…starts to wake me up. Movement helps. I walked my dog yesterday (and I really didn’t want to) but as the walk went on, I felt more and more alive. Sitting around for hours on end is a death march. The less I move, the less I WANT to move. Saying a gratitude list also helps me. I really do have a great life! When I get stuck I forget that.