Here are examples of the depth of my past desire to run from my feelings, from who I am:
*I have spent myself into bankruptcy (spending can still speak to me)
*I have exercised myself into back surgery; having to crawl in the morning due to severe foot problems.
*I have worked myself into exhaustion (this one can still call me)
*I have eaten myself to 267 pounds (I am now about 175…not sure, have not been on the scale in a while)
*I used drugs and alcohol until I had such tremendous self-loathing, I could barely breathe. I never drank or used drugs casually or socially; I was on a path of complete destruction (I have been abstinent for over 30 years).
Hence, I know about escapism.
My work with people needs to have meaning and purpose. Walking through my day like a robot DOES NOT work for me. Turning to alcohol, drugs, food, compulsive exercising, and just being “busy” to keep me from being present in my life…DOES NOT work for me. Believe me…I have tried!!
It is my hope to have many intriguing, compelling, challenging, and even frustrating conversations with you. I believe there is something greater than me – God, the Universe, Spirit. I want to thrive!!! I want to be fully engaged in my life!! I want to honor myself and be kind…though I am not always kind. Being truthful and genuine are my foundations. You will not have to guess what I am thinking. I am a good communicator, and I now see myself pretty clearly. There is always more for me to learn!! I hope to learn from you!